IstillLOVEyou

SLEEPYBEAUTY

2012-01-08T19:31:00.003+08:00

How I wish, I hadnt deleted all my previous bloggings which had

all that SHITS in it.

It's pretty cool reading back and realising how life was back then .
But I guess, I wouldnt have moved on if I left it. TOO many memories man.

I just wish you kept your word

like you said you would

It would have saved me from getting hurt

for my own good

While everything went perfect

I couldnt even think of breaking apart

In my heart, you were the only one I kept

I just hoped you guarded my heart

I'm over it. Just felt like coming up with something. LOL .

This is for you

the one who's been giving me smiles

I dont know what I feel

I should let it go a lil relaxed

It's something I just dont wanna kill

So special everytime you text

We havent spoke on the phone

neither have we met

But I know,Im not alone

It's a time not to forget

Even if nothing happens

I guess it's fine

My heart softens

and starts to whine

Honestly, I want you to stay

No reason to let you go

No, I don't want to have price to pay

Cause Boy , I know you know

Maybe you just need the time

Clear your past

Not a crime

Cause I know you're not putting on a mask

If you're gonna leave

warn me please

So that I don't have to go on my knees

Cry as I freeze

Bleaaaaaaaaah,

now. THAT is what I call . FEEELINGS !

I'm sure you can feel that too right.

So , Feel my LOVE.

OH, now leaving all the lovey dovey feelings aside ,
I HAVE GOT SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

YEAH, My RESULTS.

=/ . I don't know what I'm feeling,

but damn, I FEEL AN ONGOING WEIRD SCARED ANXIOUS NERVOUS SHITTIFIED

FEELING. yes. REALLY.

I can't be repeating how I feel to people,

SO , here I am. Doing it here.
DESPERATE MUCH.

Ehhhhhh, But seriously. Can I paused the damn time. =( I wanted to go temple, and now I cant.

Well, yet I take it as a blessing in disguise la okay.

QUEASY PEASY feeling . WTF , i dint even feel such for my first results.

It's different I suppose.

I studied my damn ass off, I SWEAR I DID .

& if I don't see the results I want to, HOW? =/

DIE LA. DIEEEEEEEEEE .

I'll hang myself, prolly really .

OH GOD, may you stay with me with good luck in my hands as I login to view my results tomorrow at 2pm.

Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeesh, okay Nisha. ENOUGH is ENOUGH .

Stop whining and going on and on and on.

SHUTUP.

I'll blog tomorrow , with a good mood .

Blah blah blaaaaaaaaaah.

& MAN,

just don't fade away. <3

2011-09-21T01:18:00.000+08:00

Stop stabbing my heart with thousan

MAKE YOU HAPPY

2011-09-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

When there's the rest of the world to make you happy,
You IGNORE IT ALL , and still live with the one that RUINS your happiness.

FUCK THAT SHIT .

You live it all , just to find out that it's not worth your time and you can prolly change the fuck outta him ?

When you dont change him to first fucking time ,he's never gonnna fucking change for fucks sake !
Stop drowning yourself .

2011-08-29T03:15:00.002+08:00

To think about it .

I'm eighteen now.

2009 , 16 years old.

Met you in my friend's house
Fell hard for you
Met , knew you even more.
Loved every part of you

Mr.Browneyedboy , 2 years , and I haven gotten over you ? Believe it or not.

You're there with that girl .
how much i tried hating you was just how much I actually loved you.

I hate the fact that you're in my head

day and night, till I get to bed

Leave my mind

How I wish

Yet those few memories

How much I miss

Nobody like you

till today

But, I still hope somebody's out there

to love me in every other way

Even then , I doubt I'll meet one

I wanna be with the one I need

instead to being with the person that needs me

Too many people I meet

not one gives me that permanent feel

I love myself too much

to get myself broken again

and to feel all that pain .

-Nisha

How much I wanna in love.
There's someone now , I know
But, I don't feel it for him

That special , permanent feeling

it's different , just for a moment

and I stay with not msging/calling him

He's definitely not mine, not at all .
I dont wanna break him , at all .

I keep telling him

Who neeeds a man to survive?
Seriously , yes we still do.

Im still young , why am I being that fool ?

Have some fun !

After my 8weeks man.
YOU GO GIRL .

Loveeeeeeee me.

No messages !

2011-02-12T11:10:00.002+08:00

And soooooooooooooo ,

Im suffering ,

It's just so bloody difficult to explain .

One side , I feel like im being the bitch .

But the fact is that ,

you don't remember anything of me .

you don't care how on earth i feel

you don't care any tiny bit bout me

NOTHING ,

and how on earth can you claim that you love me.

NOW, that part i don't get it.

I can bring in the past , real BAD .

I was being a real stupid girl then , but now . I'hv got BRAINs man, BRAINS.

You do not respect my words

You do not respect my feelings

NOTHING ,

and you love me ?

You're being a psycho , not a lover ?

You're always thinking I'm gonna fall for somebody else , or

I'm going out with guys , blah blah .

If you're gonna treat me right , why on earth would I right ?

I suffered , 3 years . 3 bloody years with you okay .

I highlight , SUFFERED .

Im not gonna bring in the past , cause I still came back to you . So what's the point .

But Im talking about after I came back , What on earth did you change ?

NOTHING , you're still being the hopeless one.

AM I BEING the guy , and you , the girl ?

You're just killing me , mentally. THAT BAD okay .

I do not deserve you , I do not !

I have cried a river for you Man . Seriously .

You're way typical minded for me to even get along with you .

The fact that you can tell me" Which guy have you gotten now" ,

OHmygod ? Is that what you tell the person you LOVE ?

Ohno , i forgot . You dont LOVE ME , you're A PSYCHO !

How difficult does it seem to get you out of my life now .

You threaten me , WTH . You're being a pain ! A HUGE PAIN IN THE ASS !

I stopped CARING how you feel , i have to .

If not , I'm never gonna get a life myself .

it's really not because I saw another guy .

Ihave been always waiting to get you outtuh my life.

So tell me , What I did , am doing. WRONG ?

So not right .

I just had to come back to you when I am in a very bad bad state .

If only I had brains . DARN !

What on earth should I do ? =(

How old is my blog ?

2011-02-10T22:52:00.002+08:00

Geeeeeez, how old is my blog already ?

Been so long since I wrote here.

WOW !

10th February , A day not to forget. =)

I fell in love with your voice , the minute I spoke to you . Fell so hard with your voice .

I was trapped for the past , I don't know how long .

I have been doing mistakes over mistakes .

You're the one I fell for after "you know who" .

I went to the temple , prayed so hard that life should be better in everyway .

And then , I saw my messages , there you went asking me for dinner on Valentine's .

I Smiled Like there's no tomorrow .

If you plan to come , please stay. and don't leave .

I cannot afford another heartbreak . I cannot .

I don't know if I love you , but I know I feel for you THAT MUCH , very MUCH that I think I might fall in love so hard for you soon . SO HARD .

God , Bless me.

Love,

Nisha

They goes all my fuggin hope.

2010-11-13T13:56:00.002+08:00

You know,

i really wonder.

Is it just me or am I having serious bad luck ?

Or maybe it's just not meant to happen.

He's not the one.

Oh man.

I needuh pull myself up, straight up highhhhhhhhh.

And just live for my freaking self.

No guys, no boys and nothing.

well ,

I guess i'll do it today.

I just hope i can stand strong after that.

I just cannot pull this any longer.

Yes i need somebody by my side.

But i dont .

Sadly, dont blame me for that man.

It's just fugging life i'hv gotten.

I'll break down sometime again i know.

But i just hopeeeeeeee i'll survive.

i just hope hope and HOPE.

Please guruji , at least let these leave me with no problem at all .

I really cannot take it ANYMORE can ? =(

I'm sincere man, i know i am.

I'll just have to live my life, somehow.

busy and happy and NO MEN ?

I sound bitchy.

But C"mon .

I have seen only two guys with my own freaking will.

Sa***** and Ra*** .

That's all!?

Mohan and Ganesh are like way outtuh the topic.

Let everything leave me once a for all man.

If i meet a guy , then i'll see bout that.

&& I want a MAN not a boy .

like those two i met with my own will.

It's daymn difficult to get such MEN these days.

& When I catch them , fuck . They dont stay.

Life huh .

Wonder how that bitch got him man.

same age , no fucking difference.

AHHH, im no bitch anywhere.

Mere kayalon mein.

I love you i guess.

It's more diff to know that Im entering the heartbreak city, and there's another heartbreak coming along. SO MUCH MORE.

wait.

STOP TALKING COCK nisha.

get lost.

Bye.

2010-11-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

It's weird how i just got to know you but you mean the world to me already.

Well prolly it's because I don't really go crazy so fast and when i do ,

Ill go all out .

Like he left me in a month and all i could turn back to was YOU KNOW WHO .

he was 22 , awesome , matured , perfect.

I wasnt lucky enough huh.

And now YOU, you you and you.

I'm going CRAZY .

I wish you knew, but yet i don't want you to.

and my enemy came back from field camp,

i thought he's coming out 1 week later, which will be on sunday.

And he came back today.

friday , 12th November !

DAYMN !

and it seems like everything's going haywire the minute he came back. ARHG!

Im not being mean, but seriously.

I gave you all out , for 3 bloody years .

I never really got true love, well at least i don't remember getting it from YOU ?

All you knew was,

cheating on me, cheating on me and >cheating on me.

TATTOO ?!

fuck , that really pisses me off.

Well, it's hot if you do it here and there, NOT EVERYWHERE!?

you look like EWWWWWW, for me. my fault ?

And I hate people controlling me, even my daddy doesnt, well maybe sometimes.

But you?, you're insane .

Not being practical in life AT ALL!

Ohkay, now there's this new person.

Who i have my eyes on now.

LIKE EYES, MY HEART , MY MIND , MY FEELINGS ON .

Seriously.

But i don't know, i really don't know.

I mean, god.

If he's not the one , why did you show him to me.

And make me go thru everything all over again

Well, one fact is that he reminds me of S******.

But,

he's way better though.

He's sweet, he's awesome , he's nice , he's like somebody i want.

SO BADLY.

I doubt, i doubt.

but still , im going CUHRAZY.

know whats crazy .

yes that's crazy. FUCK my brain i know.

im stupid.

or maybe not, cause he's too good.

Or maybe he behaves this way to all the girls,

he's just friendly the way he is.

OR NOT

WHAAAAT is he ?

P.S , im falling for you .

It's sad how you texted me only once today and you went missing

Honestly, im worried.

Like whaaaaat on this bloody earth happened to you.

You said you booked out already.

Is it, your battery died.

you met your friends.

you met another GIRL. =.=!

or you're still in camp.

WHAAAAAAAAT happen laaaa,

I like you can?

A new beginning

2010-07-29T12:57:00.002+08:00

Well, Kinda Feel A Tons Time Better Now I Guess.

Seems more like a new beginning. A lil.

Though, Some people are still in my life who needs to be removed sooner or later

Aint Being a bitch, but stating the fact aye.

Am going for an interview, Sentosa. Hopefully I get it. And If I don't , ahhh , I will get it.

Can't wait to get muh hair done , perfectly perfect !
Pay my handphone bills = | (2months already) DAYMN!
And who forgets , shopping for blah blah blah.
Lose weight , like literally lose my FATS !
No more lazy person !

AND finally ,i love myself. =)