They goes all my fuggin hope.

You know,

i really wonder.

Is it just me or am I having serious bad luck ?

Or maybe it's just not meant to happen.

He's not the one.

Oh man.

I needuh pull myself up, straight up highhhhhhhhh.

And just live for my freaking self.

No guys, no boys and nothing.

well ,

I guess i'll do it today.

I just hope i can stand strong after that.

I just cannot pull this any longer.

Yes i need somebody by my side.

But i dont .

Sadly, dont blame me for that man.

It's just fugging life i'hv gotten.

I'll break down sometime again i know.

But i just hopeeeeeeee i'll survive.

i just hope hope and HOPE.

Please guruji , at least let these leave me with no problem at all .

I really cannot take it ANYMORE can ? =(

I'm sincere man, i know i am.

I'll just have to live my life, somehow.

busy and happy and NO MEN ?

I sound bitchy.

But C"mon .

I have seen only two guys with my own freaking will.

Sa***** and Ra*** .

That's all!?

Mohan and Ganesh are like way outtuh the topic.

Let everything leave me once a for all man.

If i meet a guy , then i'll see bout that.

&& I want a MAN not a boy .

like those two i met with my own will.

It's daymn difficult to get such MEN these days.

& When I catch them , fuck . They dont stay.

Life huh .

Wonder how that bitch got him man.

same age , no fucking difference.

AHHH, im no bitch anywhere.

Mere kayalon mein.

I love you i guess.

It's more diff to know that Im entering the heartbreak city, and there's another heartbreak coming along. SO MUCH MORE.

wait.

STOP TALKING COCK nisha.

get lost.

Bye.

It's weird how i just got to know you but you mean the world to me already.

Well prolly it's because I don't really go crazy so fast and when i do ,

Ill go all out .

Like he left me in a month and all i could turn back to was YOU KNOW WHO .

he was 22 , awesome , matured , perfect.

I wasnt lucky enough huh.

And now YOU, you you and you.

I'm going CRAZY .

I wish you knew, but yet i don't want you to.

and my enemy came back from field camp,

i thought he's coming out 1 week later, which will be on sunday.

And he came back today.

friday , 12th November !

DAYMN !

and it seems like everything's going haywire the minute he came back. ARHG!

Im not being mean, but seriously.

I gave you all out , for 3 bloody years .

I never really got true love, well at least i don't remember getting it from YOU ?

All you knew was,

cheating on me, cheating on me and >cheating on me.

TATTOO ?!

fuck , that really pisses me off.

Well, it's hot if you do it here and there, NOT EVERYWHERE!?

you look like EWWWWWW, for me. my fault ?

And I hate people controlling me, even my daddy doesnt, well maybe sometimes.

But you?, you're insane .

Not being practical in life AT ALL!

Ohkay, now there's this new person.

Who i have my eyes on now.

LIKE EYES, MY HEART , MY MIND , MY FEELINGS ON .

Seriously.

But i don't know, i really don't know.

I mean, god.

If he's not the one , why did you show him to me.

And make me go thru everything all over again

Well, one fact is that he reminds me of S******.

But,

he's way better though.

He's sweet, he's awesome , he's nice , he's like somebody i want.

SO BADLY.

I doubt, i doubt.

but still , im going CUHRAZY.

know whats crazy .

yes that's crazy. FUCK my brain i know.

im stupid.

or maybe not, cause he's too good.

Or maybe he behaves this way to all the girls,

he's just friendly the way he is.

?

OR NOT

?

WHAAAAT is he ?

P.S , im falling for you .

It's sad how you texted me only once today and you went missing

Honestly, im worried.

Like whaaaaat on this bloody earth happened to you.

You said you booked out already.

Is it, your battery died.

you met your friends.

you met another GIRL. =.=!

or you're still in camp.

WHAAAAAAAAT happen laaaa,

=(

I like you can?

A new beginning

Well, Kinda Feel A Tons Time Better Now I Guess.

Seems more like a new beginning. A lil.

Though, Some people are still in my life who needs to be removed sooner or later

Aint Being a bitch, but stating the fact aye.

Am going for an interview, Sentosa. Hopefully I get it. And If I don't , ahhh , I will get it.

• Can't wait to get muh hair done , perfectly perfect !
• Pay my handphone bills = | (2months already) DAYMN!
• And who forgets , shopping for blah blah blah.
• Lose weight , like literally lose my FATS !
• No more lazy person !

AND finally ,i love myself. =)